ENOUGH.

If I have to hear or see more whitesplaining from Fox News and basically every media outlet on how the Charleston Church TERRORIST attack had nothing to do with race, but attacks on religious freedom, a hate crime against Christianity, drugs, mental disorders or anything outside of the disgusting thing that it was, a hate-filled man spreading his racist evilness on innocents, I’m going to lose it.

Just because you act like racism isn’t real doesn’t mean it isn’t. Just because you want to act like the civil rights movement was so long ago WHEN IT WAS NOT, does not make your feelings valid. But you know what a valid feeling is? This anger I have boiling inside of me that I’m finding so hard to contain.

How the hell am I supposed to look at my nieces and nephews and guarantee them that they can live free and not in fear when I can’t make that promise for my damn self?! It’s a daily worry now that I could just look at someone the wrong way and be murdered because they felt threatened by me. It sickens me that there are areas of this country I become more afraid to visit because if there aren’t many people who look like me so I can blend in, I’ll stick out like a thumb. I honestly don’t even know what the hell I’m writing right now, I’m just so so tired.

What was the point of even giving Black people any kind of “freedoms” if you were just going to come back and try to take them away from us by taking away our lives? Dare I even waste my time making plans for the future when I could be snuffed out by an overzealous cop or murdered by some guy trying to act like his own personal lynch mob? CAN I LIVE? AM I NOT A HUMAN BEING TOO JUST BECAUSE I’M BLACK?? Just like white people don’t have control of what race they’re born into, neither can I! What makes these racists think they’re better than me just because they got lucky? You’re still ignorant and mentally stunted, but I’m not holding that against you! Too much…

Lke, I’m emotionally drained. I am. Although none of these tragedies have hit my family personally, I feel a loss with every young black life taken away. Every black life taken away. EVERY LIFE, BUT THAT’S NOT WHAT THIS IS ABOUT. IT’S MY OUTCRY FOR THE WORLD TO STOP KILLING MY BROTHERS AND SISTERS. STOP TREATING OUR DEATHS LIKE THEY’RE OUR FAULTS, LIKE BECAUSE WE DRANK BEER IN COLLEGE WE DESERVED TO DIE BRUTALLY. STOP JUSTIFYING OUR MURDERS IN THE MOST CALLOUS OF WAYS. STOP BLAMING BLATANTLY RACIST WHITE KILLERS TAKING OUT THEIR DEMONS ON POC AS MENTAL ISSUES. I’M NEARLY MENTALLY BROKEN BY YOUR ACTIONS BUT YOU DON’T SEE ME GOING AROUND AND KILLING YOU, DO YOU?

I’VE BEEN QUIET FOR TOO LONG BECAUSE MY GRIEF RIDES THE LINE OF ANGER SO CLOSELY THESE DAYS.

I said nothing about Mike Brown on here. Eric Garner. Tamir Rice. Ayanna Jones. Walter Scott. John Crawford. ETC ETC ETC ETC

But I literally cannot stay quiet for Clementa Pickney. Cynthia Hurd.  Susie Jackson Ethel Lance. DePayne Middleton-Doctor. Tywanza Sanders. Daniel Simmons Sr. Sharonda Singleton. Myra Thompson. R.I.P.my brothers and sisters. I will not let your death be in vain. I will not. I will not. I can not. I refuse. I just can’t.

Dear Monday Evening Thunderstorm

If you’re not done by he time the finale of RuPaul’s Drag Race comes on, we’re going to have some problems.

Get your crap together, DIRECTV.

DO BETTER!

Hey. Ho, Let’s Go!

New laptop is here. Are you ready? Because I am. And this thing is like Kylie Jenner after she got her new lips and went to her 25-year old boyfriend’s house ready to show him what she could do!

Wait. What do you mean she’s only 17? And her parents are okay with this? But like…isn’t that illegal? I don’t understand?! Why is this okay? Like stop? Come on.

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Dark Roast Blog Hiatus!

Not because I don’t wanna post, but because my laptop is a piece of crap!

Good news is I get a new one soon!

Bad news is soon is in like 3 weeks. But the reason for lack of posts is my not wanting to deal with how obnoxious my laptop loading is. How frustrated it makes me. How much I want to curse at it (and I do).

ANYWHO, I’LL BE BACK.

Because I miss you. And I can’t wait to get with you. If you know what I mean.

Dark Roast Blog recommends you do not send me nudes, I don’t ACTUALLY want to get with you, I just have no control over my salacious humor. 😀

Is It The Weekend Yet?

That moment you get a new job after telling people in the interview that you’re great at multi-tasking, prioritizing important projects, and handling a huge workload.

And that other moment when you start the job, and three weeks in, they’re giving you all of the work.

Like, ALL OF THE WORK. Or at least it seems that way. And even when you have projects that are priority, you’re getting random emails from team leads like “Oh hey, can you do this real quick, it should take an hour.”

Which hey, you know, it’s cool! Because they told me they liked my work and have all these plans for me, so I can totally handle this, right?

This post was brought to you by the letter T, for TIRED AS HELL.

And I get to do it all again tomorrow!

But…I kind of love it, so you know.

Dream Cast: Avengers: Age of Ultron

In honor of Women’s History Month (are you celebrating by telling a woman that she’s awesome everyday? I hope so!) I’m combining my love for comic book movies and telling people what to do to create my dream cast for the The Avengers: Age of Ultron except with only females casted in the main roles!

Although I can appreciate some Chris Evans in that red white and blue uniform, you know who’d make a great female Cap?

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